All political/news thoughts aside things seem to be starting to roll forward for us finally...maybe. We'll find out for sure soon what else needs to be done to keep that ball rolling. I personally am excited yes a little nervous but definitely excited too for now. Wishing I could go into more detail but I can't. Just mainly seeing a brighter future for us.
I see this as a year full of changes but hopefully good ones.
Thursday, January 17, 2013
Questioning
Disclaimer: I know my opinions on this are not going to be popular.This is just my personal thoughts on the so called conspiracy theorists of the Sandy Hook shooting. I say so called because that is the term being tossed out there to cover anyone who questions the parts that don't add up.
Something I have found is people are shockingly more trusting of the media/government than I had realized. I've found if you question anything such as the details of the Sandy Hook shooting (if you haven't seen the video that has gone viral right now I would be surprised....if not look it up it is labeled Sandy Hook shooting exposed) and it is full of questions about what happened. Anyway if you question those details which I was doing long before seeing the video ...you are most likely to come across people who will name call, proclaim that you probably wish all the kids had died and you are just disappointed (ouch...really?) that you are a tin foil hat wearing member of the cuckoo club. Some of this is due to the media dealing with people questioning things by labeling them conspiracy theorists. I find this seems to be a grown up version of high school mental games. Peer pressure in a way. If you question it you must be a tin foil hat conspiracy theorist as well and are to be viewed as crazy. Thus in doing this they discredit anyone who dares to say "Hey this doesn't look right" and hopefully keep any others from asking questions.
Sorry I'm not in high school anymore. I do research and look for answers. Whether someone else approves of me doing so or not.
Something else I've heard is "Why would the media lie to us? They never lie." Yes seriously someone said this to me and without the intention of being sarcastic. I've found the media can take any story and twist it to what they want the public to see. Also Fox news has been caught in a lie or two before to put it lightly and are well known for putting their own spin on things yet there are far too many who watch them mouths open drooling and soaking in every word without question. There is no way anyone can convince me that the news portrays the truth and the whole truth. Even if they did it is not the media by themselves that I question. In the Sandy Hook story if you haven't reviewed the coroners interview please do and then come back and tell me there isn't something wrong. He stated that each one was shot 3-11 times by a shot gun.....really? How? and then you hear a police officer correct him from the crowd and inform him that wasn't right. Now I have heard a list of some things that were "debunked" and I appreciate that someone took the time to find some answers rather than the name calling and horrible accusations (though they were still a bit snide) here is that list Though one I have a problem with is I did go and look for more photos of the scene that were taken right after and what did I did find did was still pretty devoid of ambulances and such and it only appears a very few children were taken out. I do still have many questions that bother me about this and I'm sorry but I'm not going to just swallow it because someone else tells me to. I will do research on it and that is what I'd recommend anyone else do. However I would like to state that if you fully believe it is all for real and you come across someone else who does not...do not resort to the name calling and such just because they have questions about it. Maybe you could offer your opinion to debunk it or you could agree to disagree. Then again does anyone do that anymore?
People tend to be automatically nasty to each other anymore.
In any case another thing I was told was "The government wouldn't do anything like this to the american citizens" um....yeah actually they could. What would cause more of a disturbance to the people and strike closer to home? What would they question the least? What would blind them with emotion? Mainly because it is sacred ground and just not something anyone wants to think about or discuss because it is such a sore topic and no one wants to imagine anyone doing that with a political agenda in mind? It would be a form of psychological control. Manipulating the mindset of many at one time through a tragedy. Not saying that is what happened for sure but saying it is possible for that to be done. Whether they had involvement in the tragedy itself or not is questionable. (some think people are saying no one died....that is not necessarily true.....there may be some people saying that but some are saying that the guy who did the shooting was set up to do so.....as for my own opinions on that I don't know right now what to think) Anyway there are some odd facts surrounding the shooter that while mentioned on the main news sources aren't being talked about a lot. Some mystery that might shed some light on things one way or another. These people (the gov.) are the same people who have been known for testing their own soldiers and using them as guinea pigs My Mom remembers this as being from her era. I completely understand that those are not kids in this example but I am talking about on a larger scale. As quoted somewhere in that story if the American citizens were aware of what was going on they would have stopped it. Damn straight! Just as with the people that are asking questions with the story of the shooting. If you had any doubt in your mind would you not question it and try to get to the bottom of things (at least as much as you could) to make sure that something like that is not going on? Or at least feel less unsettled about it. No one wants for any of it to have happened at all. No one wants for anyone to experience more grief but we want to make sure there was not something more afoot. Give us a chance to put our minds at ease instead of bashing those who question. Another thing is by asking questions that is how people would normally figure out what can be changed to keep something like that from happening again. (In our local school they lock all the doors....some schools have to buzz people in after they are identified) etc. What can be learned to lower chances of such a loss in the future? I don't honestly believe that the gun control laws they are passing are going to do it. If anything I think it could cause more of an unsettled public among the law abiding citizens....the ones who weren't a problem to begin with.
Another thing that goes along with that.....what is up with the stupid drones? They claim this will bring in more jobs to Oklahoma but from what I understand our airforce is losing jobs so wouldn't those just be jobs that are being replaced? Not new ones? Not to mention the absolute creep factor?? Does anyone actually really look up anymore? I can remember as a kid seeing blue skies with the occasional plane going over. Now you can't look up without seeing several planes, jets, helicopters, whatever going overhead. They fly much lower now as well. Sometimes in the middle of the night and sometimes low enough to make you wonder if you are having an earthquake because of the vibrations shaking your house. I have seen the little police drones on channel 25 news and those things remind me of something about of some futuristic sci-fi movie. Cool on the sci-fi movie not so much IRL. :/
Something I have found is people are shockingly more trusting of the media/government than I had realized. I've found if you question anything such as the details of the Sandy Hook shooting (if you haven't seen the video that has gone viral right now I would be surprised....if not look it up it is labeled Sandy Hook shooting exposed) and it is full of questions about what happened. Anyway if you question those details which I was doing long before seeing the video ...you are most likely to come across people who will name call, proclaim that you probably wish all the kids had died and you are just disappointed (ouch...really?) that you are a tin foil hat wearing member of the cuckoo club. Some of this is due to the media dealing with people questioning things by labeling them conspiracy theorists. I find this seems to be a grown up version of high school mental games. Peer pressure in a way. If you question it you must be a tin foil hat conspiracy theorist as well and are to be viewed as crazy. Thus in doing this they discredit anyone who dares to say "Hey this doesn't look right" and hopefully keep any others from asking questions.
Sorry I'm not in high school anymore. I do research and look for answers. Whether someone else approves of me doing so or not.
Something else I've heard is "Why would the media lie to us? They never lie." Yes seriously someone said this to me and without the intention of being sarcastic. I've found the media can take any story and twist it to what they want the public to see. Also Fox news has been caught in a lie or two before to put it lightly and are well known for putting their own spin on things yet there are far too many who watch them mouths open drooling and soaking in every word without question. There is no way anyone can convince me that the news portrays the truth and the whole truth. Even if they did it is not the media by themselves that I question. In the Sandy Hook story if you haven't reviewed the coroners interview please do and then come back and tell me there isn't something wrong. He stated that each one was shot 3-11 times by a shot gun.....really? How? and then you hear a police officer correct him from the crowd and inform him that wasn't right. Now I have heard a list of some things that were "debunked" and I appreciate that someone took the time to find some answers rather than the name calling and horrible accusations (though they were still a bit snide) here is that list Though one I have a problem with is I did go and look for more photos of the scene that were taken right after and what did I did find did was still pretty devoid of ambulances and such and it only appears a very few children were taken out. I do still have many questions that bother me about this and I'm sorry but I'm not going to just swallow it because someone else tells me to. I will do research on it and that is what I'd recommend anyone else do. However I would like to state that if you fully believe it is all for real and you come across someone else who does not...do not resort to the name calling and such just because they have questions about it. Maybe you could offer your opinion to debunk it or you could agree to disagree. Then again does anyone do that anymore?
People tend to be automatically nasty to each other anymore.
In any case another thing I was told was "The government wouldn't do anything like this to the american citizens" um....yeah actually they could. What would cause more of a disturbance to the people and strike closer to home? What would they question the least? What would blind them with emotion? Mainly because it is sacred ground and just not something anyone wants to think about or discuss because it is such a sore topic and no one wants to imagine anyone doing that with a political agenda in mind? It would be a form of psychological control. Manipulating the mindset of many at one time through a tragedy. Not saying that is what happened for sure but saying it is possible for that to be done. Whether they had involvement in the tragedy itself or not is questionable. (some think people are saying no one died....that is not necessarily true.....there may be some people saying that but some are saying that the guy who did the shooting was set up to do so.....as for my own opinions on that I don't know right now what to think) Anyway there are some odd facts surrounding the shooter that while mentioned on the main news sources aren't being talked about a lot. Some mystery that might shed some light on things one way or another. These people (the gov.) are the same people who have been known for testing their own soldiers and using them as guinea pigs My Mom remembers this as being from her era. I completely understand that those are not kids in this example but I am talking about on a larger scale. As quoted somewhere in that story if the American citizens were aware of what was going on they would have stopped it. Damn straight! Just as with the people that are asking questions with the story of the shooting. If you had any doubt in your mind would you not question it and try to get to the bottom of things (at least as much as you could) to make sure that something like that is not going on? Or at least feel less unsettled about it. No one wants for any of it to have happened at all. No one wants for anyone to experience more grief but we want to make sure there was not something more afoot. Give us a chance to put our minds at ease instead of bashing those who question. Another thing is by asking questions that is how people would normally figure out what can be changed to keep something like that from happening again. (In our local school they lock all the doors....some schools have to buzz people in after they are identified) etc. What can be learned to lower chances of such a loss in the future? I don't honestly believe that the gun control laws they are passing are going to do it. If anything I think it could cause more of an unsettled public among the law abiding citizens....the ones who weren't a problem to begin with.
Another thing that goes along with that.....what is up with the stupid drones? They claim this will bring in more jobs to Oklahoma but from what I understand our airforce is losing jobs so wouldn't those just be jobs that are being replaced? Not new ones? Not to mention the absolute creep factor?? Does anyone actually really look up anymore? I can remember as a kid seeing blue skies with the occasional plane going over. Now you can't look up without seeing several planes, jets, helicopters, whatever going overhead. They fly much lower now as well. Sometimes in the middle of the night and sometimes low enough to make you wonder if you are having an earthquake because of the vibrations shaking your house. I have seen the little police drones on channel 25 news and those things remind me of something about of some futuristic sci-fi movie. Cool on the sci-fi movie not so much IRL. :/
Thursday, January 10, 2013
winter illnesses/other news
Yes I know I've covered the flu before but I am going to make this a two blog night as I'd been following some stories on winter illnesses. I hate winter for that reason it seems like they all come out of dormancy and I wish I could just hibernate. I have to fight my lupus, Sjogren's and whatever illness I am fighting at the same time all at once (not to mention my other autoimmune problems)
anyway several going on
More on the Norovirus and the flu (I can remember as a kid the classroom being almost totally empty with it in the winter)
In other news a bit of an interesting mystery , San Diego gets cold, So does Jerusalem .... while Australia has their own mini apocolypse with fires, extreme heat, and dust storms.
anyway several going on
More on the Norovirus and the flu (I can remember as a kid the classroom being almost totally empty with it in the winter)
In other news a bit of an interesting mystery , San Diego gets cold, So does Jerusalem .... while Australia has their own mini apocolypse with fires, extreme heat, and dust storms.
Water ...or lack there of
I'd been wondering about the lake levels as of late especially knowing that we are in an ongoing drought. Last night after watching a news story on Norman doing water rationing and showing photos of Lake Thunderbird I decided to research it some myself and we are really not doing so well water-wise.....Or Drought wise.... Apparently this drought is expected to go on for several more years. I put a bunch of the information on my facebook and decided I needed to blog it as well.
and....as I go to find the stories I'd found I find that facebook is continuing to twiddle with the timeline and I can't find crap on it. :/ soooo anyway here is me doing the research all over again.
Drought Monitor Oklahoma is under Exceptional or Extreme almost entirely....without an end in sight (even though we have gotten a little rain over the last couple of days it was not enough to even make a dent though it was very welcomed)
Drought expectations D3 Extreme drought major crop or pasture losses;Extreme fire danger;Widespread water shortages or restrictions.....and yet we still have people around here burning stuff.
Fox 25 story on Norman water restrictions and Thunderbird low lake levels. The photos remind me of the photos we took of Tecumseh lake awhile back. We haven't been by in awhile to see it. Need to go sometime.
More on Lake Thunderbird There are more photos and details here
Lake Hefner all time low down about 17 feet.
I will be continuing to watch the news stories on this.
and....as I go to find the stories I'd found I find that facebook is continuing to twiddle with the timeline and I can't find crap on it. :/ soooo anyway here is me doing the research all over again.
Drought Monitor Oklahoma is under Exceptional or Extreme almost entirely....without an end in sight (even though we have gotten a little rain over the last couple of days it was not enough to even make a dent though it was very welcomed)
Drought expectations D3 Extreme drought major crop or pasture losses;Extreme fire danger;Widespread water shortages or restrictions.....and yet we still have people around here burning stuff.
Fox 25 story on Norman water restrictions and Thunderbird low lake levels. The photos remind me of the photos we took of Tecumseh lake awhile back. We haven't been by in awhile to see it. Need to go sometime.
More on Lake Thunderbird There are more photos and details here
Lake Hefner all time low down about 17 feet.
I will be continuing to watch the news stories on this.
Monday, January 7, 2013
SSI/Disability and Economic debt (that part towards the end)
Some thoughts on SSI/Disability. People act like people get on them to get a free ride. First of all if you get on it you have to go through a very extensive and exhausting process. It isn't like you just walk in and say I can't work and they say Okay and give you a check. Or like you can pick a dr that will say you are disabled *wink wink* and issue them a statement. They will send you to their own drs of their choice and sometimes several ones. They will obtain proof. You WILL jump through hoops for them. Most people are also denied the first or even second time to weed out those who aren't as serious as well. Now I will disagree about some things being allowed as disabilities (these are just my own personal opinion) like alcoholism/drug addiction. Yes those will disable you but there should be something else done in those situations.
Another thing is here people seem to picture people living off that as a source of income and living it up or something. You actually do not get that much. You barely get anything to live on in that circumstance and you wind up stuck in a situation where you are not allowed to get ahead. Meaning getting off of it is not easy there is no real middle ground. When I got on it I had been trying to work to support myself and my 3 kids and when I could no longer work due to issues with my autoimmune disease as well as severe PTSD from what I'd been through combined (I was sick constantly and had collapsed at work later it was determined I'd stroked *ministroke*) I did not find out til later it was just the tip of the iceberg and I have multiple autoimmune diseases. I wasn't getting child support at the time and had to have some type of income to help take care of my kids. I will say it helped. I was able to keep a roof over our heads and such. Anyway....
The thing is when you are on it there are several things keeping you from getting ahead. You are not allowed to save any money. You can't put anything aside or it counts against you. (I think you may be allowed up to $500 at most) If you get any income (I.E. if sell something or do a little work and get over a certain amount) it counts against you. One thing they could do is maybe come up with a program for people who are disabled to do at home work. Depending on their disability. They do have the ticket to work program which isn't quite the same. But I would imagine there are plenty of people like myself who would love to have a job at home like that. There are plenty of us who want to feel more useful.
I've actually had people ask how hard can it be to start up an at home business? Why don't you just do that? I wish it were that easy. I can't do daycare because my home is not equipped for that. (maybe if I were in a newer home and we have so many dr appts and such it just wouldn't be feasible) Avon...tried it. I actually lost money on that one. Same for any of those type of jobs. You also have to be able to get out and sell and with mine I am spotty on when I can get out and do stuff. Plus you have to have a good customer base (Now that they have the online sale thing it might be different....but you come back to that you may make over your allowance one sale period and not enough the next but still never enough to make it off disability) That is another thing. It would be nice if you were allowed to make a supplemental income. You might be able to turn that into a business and get off of it. Most of the at home businesses you see are scams or would require you to have more than you can afford to start them. Keeping in mind most all would require something to start up. You would need supplies etc and that costs. Another thing is a lot of the things that people could do not so long ago now require a license etc to do when they didn't before.
When I was out and about I tried doing my murals. The people who had me do them loved them but I really didn't make any money at it (mainly bartered) and there is more competition than you might think around this area for it. That and window painting.
I decided I wanted to take and refurbish/paint furniture. Again I have a friend who loves to find things like that for me to do and I did hers and got rave reviews on it. It seems to go over well. However living where I am now if you get furniture and put it under your carport to sand/paint the city comes after you so that is a no go. Thinking moving out of the city may make it possible to progress and do what it is we love and want to do and I may be able to work my way off disability. I would love that.
I've been told having a computer is a luxury that I shouldn't have. Maybe not but in this day and age it is a big connection to the world and I've found it has helped tremendously in every day life. My kids use it to do their schooling. I use it for research and an outlet as well as being able to do things that offer me a chance at progressing in life. So to me it is a bit more than a luxury. It is an important piece of equipment. It has reached a point where most of those places (DHS and such) expect you to have one.
There are so many reasons right now I can't list them all.
They blame SS for the reason the economy is so bad. What about credit cards? SSI is money that is constantly circulating. Credit is not. People get credit cards and then get into debt and sometimes may never be able to pay it back. It is basically issuing a bunch of IOU's. Why is it you never hear of that being referred to as a possible cause of debt?
Another thing to note is in the past there were things people could do to make income for themselves when they couldn't actually work. Things that would still make them feel at some level a productive member of the community. Such as raising a garden, or chickens, or rabbits and selling or trading for items with those goods.....these things are no longer allowed within towns anymore for most part...which means you have to live outside of town to even get that option...in turn that means you have to have money for land. As a whole society is no longer really set up for self suffiency in that manner. Also most homemade goods are now regulated. You can't even bring homemade goods to your childs school for birthdays and such anymore much less sell things like that for supplemental income without having to spend the start up costs to have it regulated. I remember as a kid doing odd jobs to make money that if I were a child of today I wouldn't have been able to do because they aren't allowed anymore. I know people who cut hair or pierced ears in their home.....nope have to be licensed. Sold baked goods etc...nope have to be licensed and regulated.
So in short Yes I do think there should be more job opportunities and progression involved in Social security disability....I hope to eventually not have to have mine anymore....No I do not think it is really the majority of the cause of the economic problems in the US.
On another note I think some countries have found ways to deal with their economic problems.
Greece < they have returned to the bartering system in some areas.
Something else to think about. People are bitching about people being on social security but they never seem to say a word about what is being spent on people in prisons. Their schooling and such. They say we aren't productive enough members of society...what about those that are in long term? So I guess they deserve a better life than those who are disabled?
Just to add: Wikipedia on prison care/costs
Another thing is here people seem to picture people living off that as a source of income and living it up or something. You actually do not get that much. You barely get anything to live on in that circumstance and you wind up stuck in a situation where you are not allowed to get ahead. Meaning getting off of it is not easy there is no real middle ground. When I got on it I had been trying to work to support myself and my 3 kids and when I could no longer work due to issues with my autoimmune disease as well as severe PTSD from what I'd been through combined (I was sick constantly and had collapsed at work later it was determined I'd stroked *ministroke*) I did not find out til later it was just the tip of the iceberg and I have multiple autoimmune diseases. I wasn't getting child support at the time and had to have some type of income to help take care of my kids. I will say it helped. I was able to keep a roof over our heads and such. Anyway....
The thing is when you are on it there are several things keeping you from getting ahead. You are not allowed to save any money. You can't put anything aside or it counts against you. (I think you may be allowed up to $500 at most) If you get any income (I.E. if sell something or do a little work and get over a certain amount) it counts against you. One thing they could do is maybe come up with a program for people who are disabled to do at home work. Depending on their disability. They do have the ticket to work program which isn't quite the same. But I would imagine there are plenty of people like myself who would love to have a job at home like that. There are plenty of us who want to feel more useful.
I've actually had people ask how hard can it be to start up an at home business? Why don't you just do that? I wish it were that easy. I can't do daycare because my home is not equipped for that. (maybe if I were in a newer home and we have so many dr appts and such it just wouldn't be feasible) Avon...tried it. I actually lost money on that one. Same for any of those type of jobs. You also have to be able to get out and sell and with mine I am spotty on when I can get out and do stuff. Plus you have to have a good customer base (Now that they have the online sale thing it might be different....but you come back to that you may make over your allowance one sale period and not enough the next but still never enough to make it off disability) That is another thing. It would be nice if you were allowed to make a supplemental income. You might be able to turn that into a business and get off of it. Most of the at home businesses you see are scams or would require you to have more than you can afford to start them. Keeping in mind most all would require something to start up. You would need supplies etc and that costs. Another thing is a lot of the things that people could do not so long ago now require a license etc to do when they didn't before.
When I was out and about I tried doing my murals. The people who had me do them loved them but I really didn't make any money at it (mainly bartered) and there is more competition than you might think around this area for it. That and window painting.
I decided I wanted to take and refurbish/paint furniture. Again I have a friend who loves to find things like that for me to do and I did hers and got rave reviews on it. It seems to go over well. However living where I am now if you get furniture and put it under your carport to sand/paint the city comes after you so that is a no go. Thinking moving out of the city may make it possible to progress and do what it is we love and want to do and I may be able to work my way off disability. I would love that.
I've been told having a computer is a luxury that I shouldn't have. Maybe not but in this day and age it is a big connection to the world and I've found it has helped tremendously in every day life. My kids use it to do their schooling. I use it for research and an outlet as well as being able to do things that offer me a chance at progressing in life. So to me it is a bit more than a luxury. It is an important piece of equipment. It has reached a point where most of those places (DHS and such) expect you to have one.
There are so many reasons right now I can't list them all.
They blame SS for the reason the economy is so bad. What about credit cards? SSI is money that is constantly circulating. Credit is not. People get credit cards and then get into debt and sometimes may never be able to pay it back. It is basically issuing a bunch of IOU's. Why is it you never hear of that being referred to as a possible cause of debt?
Another thing to note is in the past there were things people could do to make income for themselves when they couldn't actually work. Things that would still make them feel at some level a productive member of the community. Such as raising a garden, or chickens, or rabbits and selling or trading for items with those goods.....these things are no longer allowed within towns anymore for most part...which means you have to live outside of town to even get that option...in turn that means you have to have money for land. As a whole society is no longer really set up for self suffiency in that manner. Also most homemade goods are now regulated. You can't even bring homemade goods to your childs school for birthdays and such anymore much less sell things like that for supplemental income without having to spend the start up costs to have it regulated. I remember as a kid doing odd jobs to make money that if I were a child of today I wouldn't have been able to do because they aren't allowed anymore. I know people who cut hair or pierced ears in their home.....nope have to be licensed. Sold baked goods etc...nope have to be licensed and regulated.
So in short Yes I do think there should be more job opportunities and progression involved in Social security disability....I hope to eventually not have to have mine anymore....No I do not think it is really the majority of the cause of the economic problems in the US.
On another note I think some countries have found ways to deal with their economic problems.
Greece < they have returned to the bartering system in some areas.
Something else to think about. People are bitching about people being on social security but they never seem to say a word about what is being spent on people in prisons. Their schooling and such. They say we aren't productive enough members of society...what about those that are in long term? So I guess they deserve a better life than those who are disabled?
Just to add: Wikipedia on prison care/costs
Saturday, January 5, 2013
Perchance to dream
I don't get a whole lot of sleep these days really. Last night in particular was one of those where it was daylight before I got to really fall asleep and then the phone rang got up dealt with that (was my mom or I'd have ignored it) got back to bed fell asleep starting having some weird mixture of nightmare mixed with good dream only for the phone to ring again this time waking my youngest so I had to get up too. :(
In any case I've had some really weird dreams lately and everyone else I've talked to have had weird or vivid ones too. Some of mine I can't say much about (vivid...not bad) but some I can and I thought I'd put them in there. I have had some really destructive type dreams like one there was a cyclone that had come in and so we all had to go to some building I am guessing the hospital (don't ask me why it was a cyclone...this is Oklahoma I know but hey weird things have happened LOL...it is a dream so I don't question the technicalities LOL) anyway and my mom had gotten sick again so was either all ready there or it happened after but anyway there were a bunch of city officials sitting in the cafeteria where my family was and were talking about something (can't remember what it was exactly but whatever it was made me upset) and we couldn't leave because there was another cyclone coming in (which pretty much fits well with how things go around here one big thing after another) and we were having to move and all so I guess a somewhat metaphorical view of what we are going through now.
The second was also a disaster dream. Something about fires popping up all over the place. The transformers on the light poles were blowing and there were explosions everywhere. (This kind of goes with another one I had) Can't remember much else to that one. Then there was one where I was shifting into a dragon. I haven't had a shapeshifting dream in awhile and I always thought these were cool. The funny thing though is there was something I had to fight but I had to go into this pond first under the water to retrieve something. It wasn't a very big pond but it was murky dark water and it was cold and I was terrified. I kept trying but I don't know if I actually did it by the end of the dream or not. this one says to me there is something you are strong enough to overcome that you are afraid of and you must dive in and overcome your fears if you are to succeed sorta thing. Then I've had a few about certain people good and bad. Right now I'd prefer to be asleep. Very very tired. Oh and we've also had a plane flying over in the wee hours of the morning before daylight that sounds as if it buzzes the house when it goes over. Seems to be a personal plane or cropduster. They even do that tilting thing where they come up on their side the last few times I've seen it. We've also had commercial planes and such come very low. There has been an unusual amount of air traffic as of here lately. Kind of disconcerting with the low fly overs and such.
In any case I've had some really weird dreams lately and everyone else I've talked to have had weird or vivid ones too. Some of mine I can't say much about (vivid...not bad) but some I can and I thought I'd put them in there. I have had some really destructive type dreams like one there was a cyclone that had come in and so we all had to go to some building I am guessing the hospital (don't ask me why it was a cyclone...this is Oklahoma I know but hey weird things have happened LOL...it is a dream so I don't question the technicalities LOL) anyway and my mom had gotten sick again so was either all ready there or it happened after but anyway there were a bunch of city officials sitting in the cafeteria where my family was and were talking about something (can't remember what it was exactly but whatever it was made me upset) and we couldn't leave because there was another cyclone coming in (which pretty much fits well with how things go around here one big thing after another) and we were having to move and all so I guess a somewhat metaphorical view of what we are going through now.
The second was also a disaster dream. Something about fires popping up all over the place. The transformers on the light poles were blowing and there were explosions everywhere. (This kind of goes with another one I had) Can't remember much else to that one. Then there was one where I was shifting into a dragon. I haven't had a shapeshifting dream in awhile and I always thought these were cool. The funny thing though is there was something I had to fight but I had to go into this pond first under the water to retrieve something. It wasn't a very big pond but it was murky dark water and it was cold and I was terrified. I kept trying but I don't know if I actually did it by the end of the dream or not. this one says to me there is something you are strong enough to overcome that you are afraid of and you must dive in and overcome your fears if you are to succeed sorta thing. Then I've had a few about certain people good and bad. Right now I'd prefer to be asleep. Very very tired. Oh and we've also had a plane flying over in the wee hours of the morning before daylight that sounds as if it buzzes the house when it goes over. Seems to be a personal plane or cropduster. They even do that tilting thing where they come up on their side the last few times I've seen it. We've also had commercial planes and such come very low. There has been an unusual amount of air traffic as of here lately. Kind of disconcerting with the low fly overs and such.
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
Back to the Grind
Starting tomorrow we are going back to our regular schedule somewhat. The kids have to start their schooling back up and hoping since we have the new router to keep them going a bit better this time. Starting back to having to do drs appts and such which actually take up way more of our time than I'd like. Getting ready to start on a few really big projects and I'm excited and anxious to get things going. Tired of waiting and the frustration of the unknown keeps me in an aggravated state.
Speaking of aggravated I had decided to start dieting again and then decided against it. I think I'd rather like to stick to paying more attention of WHAT I eat as well as portion sizes and how much energy I put out in a day. (exercise) I think those are more important. Trying to keep my blood sugar at certain levels. Drinking more water (flavored only slightly by fruit juice or tea....which I just realized I forgot to get at the store...Grrrr) and making sure the water is the first thing I consume every day. We'll see how this goes. When I am calorie counting I find I get hungry easier where as when I am not I don't really eat as much and also I get bitchier. So that is not a good side effect. So anyway mainly awareness seems to be a key thing for me. The water with fruit juice thing seems to work out great for me because I am actually drinking water which is something I've always had a hard time with and I need to anyway with my Sjogren's. :/
I think I've decided part of the reason I am not a fan of winter besides the fact it tends to be cold and bleak ....is that is also when all the lovely illnesses emerge from whatever dormant plague state they were in and abound. Flu, stomach bugs, etc. The Noro virus especially. This nasty lil bug leaves you with a whole new idea of what it means to have the 'runs', projectile vomiting, and very intense pain by the time you are done you are very weak and just want to curl up and die peacefully. Much worse than the normal stomach viruses I've ever encountered. This one left me with a terrifying fear of it. I seriously freak out and we start using hand sanitizer on the shopping cart handles etc. My oldest daughter's household got it and I banned her from our house til they were all over it. It is that bad. Apparently it seems to always come in off the cruise ships and it is getting worse every winter. (another thing if cold is supposed to be good for keeping germs down just as using boiling water etc is then why is it that they always come out in the winter and not during the warmth of summer ? ) Anyway apparently it is rampant in the UK right now. (please click on UK for the link) More information here from the CDC. Wash your hands people!!!
Right now our household is suffering from more of a sinus cold type thing that is also going around. Thankfully I don't have it but I am still taking preventative measures (taking vitamin C and hand washing etc) Hoping that continues to help.
I am so ready for spring all ready. I'll take the nice weather we have coming in next week though. I don't have to tell my son twice to play outside some but my oldest daughter still at home needs more than a little encouragement. She used to be very outdoorsy and now not as much. My youngest though needs some energy burning time. She does not do well with all this indoor stuff.
I am anxious to turn a new page in my life and as I've said before I hate the wait.
In the mean time hubby and I have been playing Nancy Drew games which sound like they'd be a kids game but they are actually a nice puzzle type thing that makes you think and a fun story line that leads you through it. I have a hard time in winter also because I swear I feel like hibernating. :/ Don't want to do much of anything....or rather I do but when I am cold I don't feel like moving
Speaking of aggravated I had decided to start dieting again and then decided against it. I think I'd rather like to stick to paying more attention of WHAT I eat as well as portion sizes and how much energy I put out in a day. (exercise) I think those are more important. Trying to keep my blood sugar at certain levels. Drinking more water (flavored only slightly by fruit juice or tea....which I just realized I forgot to get at the store...Grrrr) and making sure the water is the first thing I consume every day. We'll see how this goes. When I am calorie counting I find I get hungry easier where as when I am not I don't really eat as much and also I get bitchier. So that is not a good side effect. So anyway mainly awareness seems to be a key thing for me. The water with fruit juice thing seems to work out great for me because I am actually drinking water which is something I've always had a hard time with and I need to anyway with my Sjogren's. :/
I think I've decided part of the reason I am not a fan of winter besides the fact it tends to be cold and bleak ....is that is also when all the lovely illnesses emerge from whatever dormant plague state they were in and abound. Flu, stomach bugs, etc. The Noro virus especially. This nasty lil bug leaves you with a whole new idea of what it means to have the 'runs', projectile vomiting, and very intense pain by the time you are done you are very weak and just want to curl up and die peacefully. Much worse than the normal stomach viruses I've ever encountered. This one left me with a terrifying fear of it. I seriously freak out and we start using hand sanitizer on the shopping cart handles etc. My oldest daughter's household got it and I banned her from our house til they were all over it. It is that bad. Apparently it seems to always come in off the cruise ships and it is getting worse every winter. (another thing if cold is supposed to be good for keeping germs down just as using boiling water etc is then why is it that they always come out in the winter and not during the warmth of summer ? ) Anyway apparently it is rampant in the UK right now. (please click on UK for the link) More information here from the CDC. Wash your hands people!!!
Right now our household is suffering from more of a sinus cold type thing that is also going around. Thankfully I don't have it but I am still taking preventative measures (taking vitamin C and hand washing etc) Hoping that continues to help.
I am so ready for spring all ready. I'll take the nice weather we have coming in next week though. I don't have to tell my son twice to play outside some but my oldest daughter still at home needs more than a little encouragement. She used to be very outdoorsy and now not as much. My youngest though needs some energy burning time. She does not do well with all this indoor stuff.
I am anxious to turn a new page in my life and as I've said before I hate the wait.
In the mean time hubby and I have been playing Nancy Drew games which sound like they'd be a kids game but they are actually a nice puzzle type thing that makes you think and a fun story line that leads you through it. I have a hard time in winter also because I swear I feel like hibernating. :/ Don't want to do much of anything....or rather I do but when I am cold I don't feel like moving
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