Udumbara flowers
This came up in my search and I thought they were very interesting. Pretty little things if they are not photoshopped and I'd be likely to think they are a type of fungus though they don't appear to be catagorized as such. Very delicate tiny little flowers growing from a threadlike stem that seem to grow on anything and are talked about in Buddist prophecy. Something to read up more on I guess. I have seen something like this just really didn't think much of it though at the time.
Thought this was interesting too. Apparently today is an educational day for me LOL
http://www.falundafa.org/eng/intro.html
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Lotus flowers
I had a very interesting dream last night. This is an accomplishment in itself because as of late Miss Abbigail has not been sleeping. I am in the process of trying to wean her and also get her to stay in her own bed at night which she thinks she needs to wake up and come to our bed to nurse. I hadn't had anything other than what feels like a cat nap in atleast a week though likely more. That wears on you after awhile. Very frustrating when you know they are asleep and you barely shift like you are going to stand up to go put them in their crib and they start crying.
Anyway this dream I was having. I can't remember the first half but I was standing in a Japanese style water garden. Behind me there were some trees and to the side was a building. I believe there were monks (apparently this dream was sort of a collage LOL) It was night time and there was a full moon and it was reflecting on the water in front of me and the water was filled with lotus flowers. One of the monks tells me something about a prophecy of 50 lotus flowers blooming (I am assuming at night because it was night in the dream) As he's speaking there are two small very fair haired children standing at the side and I'm not sure what happens but something happens to them and I am saddened. (Drowned???) Something and the monk tells me not to be sad for them but their passing heralds the beginning of a journey. Then I see this woman getting on a boat that looks like a banana boat or something. Going down the amazon. She looks somewhat sad but then she turns and gets on the boat and the dream ends. WTH???
So to sum it so far what I get from it are 50 lotus flowers, night time, 2 small blonde children that died???, and a journey
I start by looking up lotus flowers. I know nothing about then other than they show up in eastern cultures and are pretty and found in water. LOL I am actually suprised by what I found.
Lotus flower information
They actually do bloom at night. I did not know this. Apparently a symbol of enlightenment. Also used before meditation as an aid.Accordingly, the Lotus is the symbol of resurrection, purity, serenity and peace. The Lotus flower was part of the Ancient Egyptian creation story. Because the flower opens each day and closes each night, it is a symbol of rebirth and eternal life, the main theme of Egyptian religion. According to the creation story, Ra, the Sun God, created himself from amidst chaos and first emerged from the petals of the lotus flower. When Ra returned to the lotus flower each night, its petals enfolded him once again. The Lotus was the symbol of the Upper Kingdom of Egypt, seen as the tall white crown, symbolic of the Lotus bud.< Inserted from the page I found.
I was totally fascinated. Something that stood out for me is the lotus flower is also a major symbol for abuse survivors. Symbol for courage, purity, and awakening. This does mean something to me.
I couldn't find anything on the blonde children guessing that their symbolic meaning has yet to be figured out. I guess something that is to be left behind. Innocence? youth? WHo knows if I will ever figure that out.
The journey is most likely self explanitory though I'm sure there is more to it.
All in all I am still amazed I got some real sleep and was able to dream LOL That and the lotus flower has a bit more meaning to me now that I know more about it. I guess it will stick with me.
Anyway this dream I was having. I can't remember the first half but I was standing in a Japanese style water garden. Behind me there were some trees and to the side was a building. I believe there were monks (apparently this dream was sort of a collage LOL) It was night time and there was a full moon and it was reflecting on the water in front of me and the water was filled with lotus flowers. One of the monks tells me something about a prophecy of 50 lotus flowers blooming (I am assuming at night because it was night in the dream) As he's speaking there are two small very fair haired children standing at the side and I'm not sure what happens but something happens to them and I am saddened. (Drowned???) Something and the monk tells me not to be sad for them but their passing heralds the beginning of a journey. Then I see this woman getting on a boat that looks like a banana boat or something. Going down the amazon. She looks somewhat sad but then she turns and gets on the boat and the dream ends. WTH???
So to sum it so far what I get from it are 50 lotus flowers, night time, 2 small blonde children that died???, and a journey
I start by looking up lotus flowers. I know nothing about then other than they show up in eastern cultures and are pretty and found in water. LOL I am actually suprised by what I found.
Lotus flower information
They actually do bloom at night. I did not know this. Apparently a symbol of enlightenment. Also used before meditation as an aid.Accordingly, the Lotus is the symbol of resurrection, purity, serenity and peace. The Lotus flower was part of the Ancient Egyptian creation story. Because the flower opens each day and closes each night, it is a symbol of rebirth and eternal life, the main theme of Egyptian religion. According to the creation story, Ra, the Sun God, created himself from amidst chaos and first emerged from the petals of the lotus flower. When Ra returned to the lotus flower each night, its petals enfolded him once again. The Lotus was the symbol of the Upper Kingdom of Egypt, seen as the tall white crown, symbolic of the Lotus bud.< Inserted from the page I found.
I was totally fascinated. Something that stood out for me is the lotus flower is also a major symbol for abuse survivors. Symbol for courage, purity, and awakening. This does mean something to me.
I couldn't find anything on the blonde children guessing that their symbolic meaning has yet to be figured out. I guess something that is to be left behind. Innocence? youth? WHo knows if I will ever figure that out.
The journey is most likely self explanitory though I'm sure there is more to it.
All in all I am still amazed I got some real sleep and was able to dream LOL That and the lotus flower has a bit more meaning to me now that I know more about it. I guess it will stick with me.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Unexpected turn in the road
Sometimes life takes a turn that you could kind of see coming but yet at the same time didn't really expect to see it go that way. I haven't been on to blog lately because we had a family emergency and I would like to take this time to bring awareness to these types of illness.
My mom had to have spinal surgery awhile back. I know it was before the May 10 tornado because I do remember that. She got sick around June 11 with a lot of vomiting and not able to eat. We thought it was her diverticulitis and to be honest I wanted to call the ambulance that time. She said that no she would wait it out and so I listened instead of following my instinct. I should have followed my instinct. She assured me she would go in to the dr. after that and she did. The dr. gave her something for pain and all and that was that. She cut her finger badly on a metal fan blade sometime after that. It nearly cut it off and she had to go in for stitches and all and they didn't think she had broken it but later she went back in for them to remove the stitches and they said that yes they had in fact decided she had broken it. Fast forward to a couple of days or so ago when she started vomiting again severely. We had gone over to bring her dinner and she couldn't eat. We went over again to fix her up a new a/c to help cool her house some more because it is hot right now. Running in the 100's. Her face looked almost sort of grey but she didn't want to go in ....again I should have listened to my instinct lets just say lesson learned all to well now. I feel horrible. I told her to call us any time I don't care what time of night or whatever if she should change her mind or need anything. Well early the next morning (she of course waited til she knew we would be up with the kids) she calls and I ask if she wants hubby to take her in and she says no she can't sit up that long and she asked me to call an ambulance. Come to find out not only had she been vomiting severely she was bleeding and every time she stood (she kept trying to take care of her cats) She would gush blood. I was like holy crap mom why didn't you tell me this? (because she knew I would have hauled her butt in before that if I'd have known) So I called the ambulance and sat and waited with her til they got there and she was all ready to go. She looked somewhat relieved to go. She went in her nightgown and I put her purse and meds up on the gurney with her. She even left her flip flops. I didn't find out til later when I called the ER to check on her that I found out her white cell count was sky high and her blood pressure which has normally been too high was bottomed out so low that they couldn't give her any pain medicine or anything so she had to sit down in the ER for ever til that stabilized some and then admitted her and at this point she has been found to have a massive serious infection on one side of her abdomen we think it may be from as far back as her spinal surgery but we know it was as far back as June 11th. They were upset that the dr did not have her further checked out when she went in the first time. She at first thought she would be getting out in a short time period as soon as she could keep down liquids but at this point there is no clue as to when she will be out. She is on antibiotics to help try and fight the infection though they also said that the antibiotics she received for her injured finger may have helped slow the infection but at the same time this could make her more resistant to antibiotics. Mom has diverticulitis which means pockets in the intestines that can be aggrivated by certain foods, Colitis which means ulcers in the intestines, and lupus which is an autoimmune disorder as well as Sjogrens which is also an autoimmune disorder. This complicates things.
She was told when she can keep liquids down some, the tenderness is gone, and the antibiotics start to work some they can go in and do a colonoscopy to try and see more what they are dealing with. That in itself may be awhile. She is on an IV drip and some meds to help keep the nausea at bay when they give her the liquids which she says everything tastes wrong and the drs have told her not to push it in that area. Just take them as she can.
Then when she is well enough to go through the colonoscopy they may wind up removing a piece of bowel but that is too far down the road to even think about at this time. I am going to go see her tomorrow or tuesday (looks like tues may be better) and this is hard for me because of the agoraphobia which sucks but this is one of those situations where I feel I need to suck it up and go. I am having health issues of my own. I am off to eat dinner for now but I thought blogging about this might make me feel a bit better. I am really getting worried and trying to take things a day at a time with worrying about mom. I really don't know what is going to happen at this point in time. I don't know what to expect.
My mom had to have spinal surgery awhile back. I know it was before the May 10 tornado because I do remember that. She got sick around June 11 with a lot of vomiting and not able to eat. We thought it was her diverticulitis and to be honest I wanted to call the ambulance that time. She said that no she would wait it out and so I listened instead of following my instinct. I should have followed my instinct. She assured me she would go in to the dr. after that and she did. The dr. gave her something for pain and all and that was that. She cut her finger badly on a metal fan blade sometime after that. It nearly cut it off and she had to go in for stitches and all and they didn't think she had broken it but later she went back in for them to remove the stitches and they said that yes they had in fact decided she had broken it. Fast forward to a couple of days or so ago when she started vomiting again severely. We had gone over to bring her dinner and she couldn't eat. We went over again to fix her up a new a/c to help cool her house some more because it is hot right now. Running in the 100's. Her face looked almost sort of grey but she didn't want to go in ....again I should have listened to my instinct lets just say lesson learned all to well now. I feel horrible. I told her to call us any time I don't care what time of night or whatever if she should change her mind or need anything. Well early the next morning (she of course waited til she knew we would be up with the kids) she calls and I ask if she wants hubby to take her in and she says no she can't sit up that long and she asked me to call an ambulance. Come to find out not only had she been vomiting severely she was bleeding and every time she stood (she kept trying to take care of her cats) She would gush blood. I was like holy crap mom why didn't you tell me this? (because she knew I would have hauled her butt in before that if I'd have known) So I called the ambulance and sat and waited with her til they got there and she was all ready to go. She looked somewhat relieved to go. She went in her nightgown and I put her purse and meds up on the gurney with her. She even left her flip flops. I didn't find out til later when I called the ER to check on her that I found out her white cell count was sky high and her blood pressure which has normally been too high was bottomed out so low that they couldn't give her any pain medicine or anything so she had to sit down in the ER for ever til that stabilized some and then admitted her and at this point she has been found to have a massive serious infection on one side of her abdomen we think it may be from as far back as her spinal surgery but we know it was as far back as June 11th. They were upset that the dr did not have her further checked out when she went in the first time. She at first thought she would be getting out in a short time period as soon as she could keep down liquids but at this point there is no clue as to when she will be out. She is on antibiotics to help try and fight the infection though they also said that the antibiotics she received for her injured finger may have helped slow the infection but at the same time this could make her more resistant to antibiotics. Mom has diverticulitis which means pockets in the intestines that can be aggrivated by certain foods, Colitis which means ulcers in the intestines, and lupus which is an autoimmune disorder as well as Sjogrens which is also an autoimmune disorder. This complicates things.
She was told when she can keep liquids down some, the tenderness is gone, and the antibiotics start to work some they can go in and do a colonoscopy to try and see more what they are dealing with. That in itself may be awhile. She is on an IV drip and some meds to help keep the nausea at bay when they give her the liquids which she says everything tastes wrong and the drs have told her not to push it in that area. Just take them as she can.
Then when she is well enough to go through the colonoscopy they may wind up removing a piece of bowel but that is too far down the road to even think about at this time. I am going to go see her tomorrow or tuesday (looks like tues may be better) and this is hard for me because of the agoraphobia which sucks but this is one of those situations where I feel I need to suck it up and go. I am having health issues of my own. I am off to eat dinner for now but I thought blogging about this might make me feel a bit better. I am really getting worried and trying to take things a day at a time with worrying about mom. I really don't know what is going to happen at this point in time. I don't know what to expect.
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